Well, it’s official. I can only sleep on my back lying down for at most 3 hours at a time. This makes sleeping next to impossible. I don’t think anyone can sleep sitting up propped up on pillows; except for my dad maybe. So now, I just take naps throughout the night. Which is truly no way to live.

I have, though, discovered a lot of different documentaries that I watch while I’m up. History documentaries of course, what else would I watch? Tuesday is my seven month post op from my ACL reconstruction, which recovery is going great. If this stenosis hadn’t gotten worse or I hadn’t developed this tumor, I’d be well on my way to being back on my board in the sea. But…..of course it’s not that easy.

My appointment with my spinal doctor is Wednesday and since it’s safe to say that the ablation didn’t work this time, I’m pretty sure that the next step is neurosurgery and whatever they would recommend. At this point I’m willing to do and try anything to make this pain stop. I’ll even go to PT for it, if that will help with the pain. I just want the pain to stop and get better. It’s so depressing to not be able to get proper sleep, walk and continue to recover on my knee, and just be normal. I just want to be normal, but I’ll be ok. I know I will.